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May 23, 2005
Getting Excited
I've been thinking about going on vacation for the last week. We get to go to the beach and the lake (in Vermont) for 2 weeks this summer and I can't wait. Every morning I wake up thinking about it. I think about seeing my nephews and niece again mostly. I can' t wait to see Caleb interacting even more with them this time. We'll be at my aunt's beach house for a week with my side of the family (acutally only 5 days). Then its off to the lake in Vermont to spend time with Bob's family.
We're adding some stops along the way to see our grandparents. If Bob's grandma doesn't make it to the lake, we'll stop and see her in New Jersey. And on the way home from Vermont we'll stop to see my Grandmother, Nana. We just heard that her cancer is far far advanced and they've given her less than six months to live. Its so hard dealing with this news. The first thing I thought is that she probably won't get to meet the baby I'm carrying. Gosh that's just hard to swallow. It really makes me face the reality of her being gone before she's even gone. Its been over 3 years since I've seen her and she's never met Caleb. So we must stop to see her, if we do anything at all!
Then hopefully we'll get to see Grampy and Alice, my grandfather and stepgrandmother. They are our sweetheart newlywed grandparents. Ok they've been married for 10 years, but they don't act like it! I love them so much. Alice is so dear to me and Grampy can make me laugh like no other. He's 90 this year and quicker with the wit than about anyone I know. We got to see them at my brother's wedding, which was wonderful, but I definitely want to see them again. I've always had a special bond with Grampy. When Granny died (my grandmother) I held his hand throughout the graveside service. He and my dad have always told me that I am so much like my Granny. I wouldn't know because I never knew her as she was. I always remember her with Alzheimers. Telling stories like it really happend yesterday of when her kids were little and singing hymns she knew all from heart. But she was, well its hard for me to describe what they've told me. But I know its my headstrongness, the way I joke with Grampy, some of my health issues, and I guess the way Grampy and I interact overall that reminds my dad of his mom. So I hope to spend time with Grampy and Alice, especially since I'm going to miss his 90th birthday party the second week of June.
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May 18, 2005
Hives
For a lack of anything better to post on let me tell you about my hives. Well I've been itching for almost a week now. I kept thinking, man there's so many bugs biting me! Then yesterday my tongue started hurting. You know like when you burn it on a hot liquid? It feels like that all around the edge and underneath and some on top and its hard to taste anything well. I looked up "itchy, painful tongue" on google and found out that I have hives. (connected these weird "bites" with the tongue thing) So the remedy is to take benedryl, which I did last night, with a bit of a hang over this morning. Anyway, I have no idea how I got these hives. Our best guess is irritation from our very tall grass (which Bob cut last night). Anyone have any ideas or experience with this? I know medical stuff really doesn't make a very fun post. Oh well.
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May 07, 2005
"Godspeed"
When I was pregnant with Caleb and sewing up a storm I listened to tons of music. It was while I was sewing something for his room that I first heard the song Godspeed by the Dixie Chicks. We had found out we were having a little boy, but I was still feeling a lack of bonding with the little guy. This song brought tears to my eyes as I tried to imagine life with my little boy and singing a song like this to him some day.
Well I'm 11 weeks along and still forget I'm pregnant sometimes. I think I've given in more to my fears and anxieties about having 2 kids so close together that I let those fears rob me of my joy about being pregnant. Bob played Godspeed for me last night, and all those excited feelings for Caleb's arrival came back. I am really starting to get excited that we are pregnant and hope to stop giving into my fears so much and trust that God knows exactly what he's doing and that he is taking care of us.
Here's the lyrics to "Godspeed":
Dragon tales and the "water is wide"
Pirate's sail and lost boys fly
Fish bite moonbeams every night
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
The rocket racer's all tuckered out
Superman's in pajamas on the couch
Goodnight moon, we'll find the mouse
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
God bless mommy and match box cars
God bless dad and thanks for the stars
God hears "Amen," wherever we are
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Godspeed
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
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May 06, 2005
Strange Prayer
I've been really selfish feeling lately. Craziness abounded at our house for pretty much all of April. It started with the 3hd server crash, then family visiting, then we all got sick for a couple of weeks. I find when schedules change I forget what's important and start focusing too much on myself. I've been in a rut lately, feeling like I'm snapping at Bob all of the time and having all the yuck come out of my heart. Thinking more of myself than those around me.
All this to say I was praying about this today while Caleb was playing at my feet. When he crawls across the floor, sometimes he drags things between his legs unknowingly. Well he was right next to me while I was praying and he sat up and his butt started to pray! "Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep..." I looked down and he had dragged this little praying bear attached to a blanket under his butt, sat up and joined in my prayer time. This struck me so funny, I just had to laugh and laugh. The timing was great, almost a "hey mama, lighten up a little and laugh." You gotta love it.
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